As I mentioned in Part 1, I had decided to become a professional pianist.
However, my stint at the boarding school and the divorce of my parents, destabilised and confused me.
Although I had a wonderful piano teacher at boarding school (it was the only nun who was nice to me), I was disoriented about life.
I had many unanswered questions.
a. Why was I sent to boarding school 10 minutes away from where I lived? It was of a religion I had never heard of. My father was an aetheist, my mother wasn’t practising anything. I only got into that school because of a friend of my parents.
b. Why was Mother Superior (the headmistress) always nasty to me. She used to say that I was a sinner as my parents were both divorced from previous marriages and were now separated to be divorced again.
c. Why did I have to kneel daily in the Chapel at 5.00am whatever the season? Reply was always, because I was a sinner.
Once in the outside world, I decided life was going to be on my terms. I knew that it would upset my mother terribly if I didn’t play the piano, so I STOPPED for a few years. And so, my standard deteriorated rapidly. Can you imagine the pain in my heart from that decision? I loved the instrument.
I still play today but infrequently as I never achieved the standard I had reached in the early years.
If YOU have a passion for something and had stopped for whatever reason, when you recommence …
Be kind to yourself, be loving to yourself and take it slowly.
You will get back into it.
Video to come……….
Me, now, experimenting with my iPhone playing 2 minutes of “La Paloma”, “The Dove”.
It’s a popular Spanish song that has been produced and reinterpreted in diverse cultures, settings, arrangements, and recordings over the last 140 years. The song was written by the Spanish Basque composer Sebastián Iradier around 1860 after a visit to Cuba.